A PARTY AND CHUCK E. CHEESE

On Wednesday, March 31 at 5:18 AM my little princess turned DIVA will turn six! I can't believe I am going to be a mother to a six year old. I can honestly say that she has helped me grow up and get my priorities in place. I am no longer worried about how I look and if you could see me you would know it. I am no longer worried about my shoes, I buy one pair of tennis shoes every two years and live in scandals most of the time. I am no longer that selfish person I was before I had her. Her health and happiness are the most important to me. We've encountered the most horrible kind of pain anyone could experience when Cylas died and even though we are still missing him, we've managed to keep moving forward. We've accepted a precious little girl into our lives and she's one of us no matter what anyone says.

Prairie is a beautiful little girl with a heart of gold. She loves her momma, her brother, and sister. She's learning to read and write in the Cherokee Language ( not an easy task, but she's doing it.) She's a great artist and is always drawing family pictures (those pictures always have Cylas sitting on a cloud watching over us). She is "Bop's" (my dad) girl and competes for his attention with Teela. Sometimes they are both on his lap watching TV and enjoying their time with THEIR Bop as Teela says. And she loves the Twilight Saga just as much as I do and she's even a big fan of Vampires. I love that little girl with all my heart. I thank God for every chance I get.

Tomorrow she'll be having her birthday party at Chuck E. Cheese's. She will be with her dad next weekend so I had to do her party from "me" this weekend. I ask her every year where she wants her party and the last couple of years the parties have been low key and at home. This year she begged and begged for Chuck E. Cheese's and I finally gave in and made the reservations. So I really hope she has fun and enjoys herself. She'll also get a special trip to Build a Bear but I haven't told her that. I want that to be a surprise. Her uncle is giving her some money to go "build" something. I haven't quite figured how I will fit Cylas into the celebration but we always try and include him in everything. I think it helps her to know that no matter what he's still her brother whether he's here or in heaven.

Prairie, Mommy, Cylas, and Teela love you very much!

15 MONTHS OLD

Ms. Bossy Rossy (Teela) is 15 months old today. She's a ball of fun. She loves to dance and has learned to climb. We've had to move our chairs into the extra bedroom so she wouldn't be climbing on them. She hasn't quite learned how to climb onto the beds or sofa and I hope that doesn't happen anytime soon.

She's been sick the last four days but I think whatever she had is finally leaving her system. Her doctor seems to think she might have asthma. For her next doctor's visit that will be the topic of her check-up. She also stays constipated and I've tried everything to help her out on that one. So I guess I'll have to bring that back up too.

We watched Dancing with the Stars last and she loved it. She would stand in front of the TV and just dance. She would turn around and sway, it was so cute.

HAPPY 15 MONTHS TEELA!!!

Mommy

GETTING READY TO TURN SIX

Every year I get P's pictures made around her birthday. We got some made on the 13th and they turned out good.

What do you think?

IT'S A BEEN YEAR AND 2 DAYS

(T and Uncle Alby)

On March 13, 2009 a special little someone came to live with me. She was tiny and precious and needed some love. She was 2 1/2 months old and had already lived a rough life. I wasn't sure I was ready for such a journey but I faced my fears and went full speed ahead. She's a good little girl and fits into my small family unit perfectly. She has helped my heart heal so much since losing Cylas. I'm not quite 100% back to normal and honestly I don't I ever will be. She has a peice of my heart just like P and Cylas do. She's become a part of my life and I'm happy to be the mom that she needed so badly.

I am talking about Bossy Rossy (T) of course. She's the little girl that has come into my life and put a smile back on my face. She is now a feisty little girl with a giant personality. I've watched her grow into this little person and I thank God for her. She has become my daughter during this time and I can't imagine a day without her. I pray for her health everyday.

I don't have the paper work yet, that says she's mine but I've invested alot into her little life. She's safe, loved & wanted. Teela, you are a precious blessing and I love you so very much.

14 MONTHS

T is 14 months old.....Yay!!!!

She has been with me for about a year now and I could never give her back. I know that sounds bad, but it's so true. She's growing into this curious toddler and the fun is just beginning.

She turns our TV's on and off.
She pulls everything out of our cabinets.
She's slowly getting used to her sippy cups.
She's getting more teeth.
Her hair is getting a little longer but she has not had a first hair cut.
She's funny and loves to dance.
She likes basketball.
She's starting to say more and more everyday.
She's learning and growing and that's all I could ask for.

HAPPY 14 MONTHS, TEELA!!!!

WHEW!!!!!

I know that I am bad at updating this blog. I update it when I feel like it, which is funny, you would think I would like to update this blog because of my two beautiful living girls instead of concentrating on Cylas' blog. But I guess I'm trying to balance the best of both worlds, the world of a dead baby mama and the world of the living.

I've been out of work the last five days because Teela had RSV. The doctor told me to keep her in the house and on her meds. So we've both kind of had cabin fever. She was walking around with her jacket and tobbagan on for the last two days and was more than ready to get in her car seat this morning to go to school. So I think she was more than ready to go back into the world.

Prairie is doing great. She's growing like a weed. She has gotten so tall in the last couple months, it's unbelievable (sp?). She will be six at the end of March and I can't believe how fast time has gone by. It seems like only yesterday she was only 7 lbs. 9 ozs. as compared to the present where she weighs 50lbs. It's been such a blessing to have her in my life. After Cylas died she was my only reason to move forward and keep going. She's my baby girl and I love her with all my heart.

Teela has been a blessing too!! She's doing funny things and is 13 months old. She's dancing and talking more, she's just amazing. I never thought that I could be this happy again after losing such a handsome little boy. I miss him, yes, but I am also enjoying every moment with my girls. Teela's favorite words right now are "fat back" and she points her finger at us, which in Teela language means "right now". She can say right now but chooses not to. She's so cute.

We're still not in our house and probably won't be until late Spring, UGH!!!!!!!

YOU'LL NEVER BELIEVE................

what came out of T's nose. I could never do it justice so here's the pic.