P HAS BEEN MISSING BROTHER

My sweet, tall P has been having a hard time lately. She's been missing her brother, Cylas. She has her moments every month and it lasts for 10 days. There are times she mentions how much she misses him and then there are times she just cries. She wants me to read "Dancing on the Moon". It's a really good book and it helps her understand that even though her brother is not here, he is still here spiritually and in our hearts. The book just reassures everything that I've told her from the beginning. I think about how hard it's been for me and I can't even begin to imagine how hard it's been for my little girl. She's had her innocense taken at such a young age. She knows way too much about death and she's only 5. She knows that when someone dies, they don't come back, NO matter how much you pray and wish they would. It hurts me to know that her little heart is broken because she misses her brother. When Cylas died I know that a part of me went with him, but I also think that apart of my daughter went with him too. I try to make her life as fun as possible. She has a great support system, but sometimes I wonder if it's enough. Her little friends know that she lost a brother so I know that she talks about him to them. She talks to me, my mom and my dad about how much she misses her brother. I honestly don't know how much she shares with her dad because she knows that he denied Cylas. She knows that he didn't want Cylas. And she also brings that up, too. I'm hoping that after tomorrow she'll be fine. (P it's ok. Momma is always here for you. And you know that Cylas lives on in your heart.)

10 MONTHS OLD

Today T is 10 months old and battling, yet, another ear infection. I hate the fact that it's so easy for her to get sick. I try my best to keep her healthy but poor thing she catches everything that comes around. It's daycare, home, and I'm thinking a weak immune system. T is getting so big, it's unbelieveable. She's been crawling for about 3 months, she says mama, baba, bye bye, bite bite, nana, & mine. And to make P mad is also says "my momma". Which totally drives P crazy. T is also pulling up and standing "some" on her own. She hasn't got brave enough to take any steps but I think that's coming very soon.

We've had some cold spells here in Cherokee. T has her winter clothes ready to go. Here are a few pics of her in her winter's best. They were taken last week.

WE LIT OUR CANDLE

Here is a picture of our candle Mommy lit in memory of our brother, Cylas.

OCTOBER 15TH

T AND I ARE REMEMBERING OUR BROTHER TODAY!!!!

CRAWLING CONTEST

On Saturday, T was in a crawling contest at the fair. I thought I had a crawling champion on my hands. I mean she crawls all over the place at the house. She crawls down the hall, under the table, and into all the bedrooms. But on the day I wanted to let everyone see her crawl, what does she do? Well, lets just say she's too nosy for her own good. Instead of crawling, she sits there and watches all the other babies crawl. All I could do was laugh because I actually thought she would crawl. I wish that P was there, she might have crawled to her big Sis, but it was her Saturday to be with her dad, so I didn't ask him to have her there for the contest. Even though she just sat there, T is still MY crawling champion. I guess I just had some high expectations and she didn't.

AS PROMISED...................

Here is a picture of P showing off her gap. And she received $2.oo from the tooth fairy last night.

FIRST TOOTH

Well this morning P lost her very first tooth. It's been loose for about 2 months and she refused to let me try and pull it. So we had to WAIT & WAIT for it to fall out on it's own. T on the other hand is getting teeth left and right. Currently she looks like a vampire, but that will change in the next few weeks. I have a couple pictures of P's tooth but not one of her smiling without it (I'll take one later tonight and I'll post it later.)